Mixed feeling.

Is it because I’m thinking too much about it or just because I need it? I don’t know but I’m seriously envy about those people. It has been pretty long since I last had that kind of feeling. Though these kinda things should be left to fate to decide on when it will happen and when it will come, but I just have the sudden urge of having it.

This is annoying and disturbing me. I just don’t understand this complicated thing.

Could someone just explain to me? I’ve always been like being pessimistic towards my friends who are in it but now I felt the strong urge that I want to be in it too! ARRRRHHHH HELP ME!

troubled.

Edited: January 19th, 2009